Well here’s the basics.
Name: Alexandra Felski.
Birthday: 11 August.
Sexual Orientation: Lesbian.
Relationship Status: Taken.♥
Okay, now here’s where things get complicated.
My mom: Well, she isn’t really a mom. She’s an excuse for one, honestly. She left me to raise her kids while she did whatever she wanted, and dated whoever she wanted. I no longer live with her. I moved out. I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
My dad: Long story short, I don’t have one. He abandoned me and my mom when she was 17 and pregnant.
My sister: She was the typical sister. We fought, made up, fought again, then spent all night laughing and joking and being the kind of sisters you see on tv. I miss her to death, sometimes. Other times I just really don’t.
My brother: That little boy is my entire life. He is my bestfriend. He is 8 years younger than me and he is just so perfect. He always knows what to say and when to say it. He’s loving and lovable and I would do anything to have this little boy back in my life. I miss him every day I’m gone.
My girlfriend: This girl is the whole reason I’m still alive. She has gotten me through so much I can’t explain it. She has been there from day one. And has never left. We’ve been together for over a year now, and I honestly hope to marry her one day.
Me: I spend too much time on the internet, I’m too smart without even trying. I’m insecure and have jealousy issues. I rely on people too much. I’m super shy, but horribly outspoken. I’m random and obnoxious, yet quiet and conservative at the same time. I’m opinionated, yet never share my views. Being my friend is probably one of the easiest things in the world.
I could go into a long story about all the abuse I’ve faced. About how I was molested for 8 years, and how I’m petrified of basements from being locked in one for weeks at a time when I was little. But, that isn’t the first thing I want you to know about me. I want you to know I am one of the absolute sweetest people you will ever meet. I will always try to make you smile, and I will try my hardest to be your bestfriend.
If you’re going to come to see me, see me. Don’t sit on the other side of the room and text someone else. Like ugh. I just want to cry.
Girlfriend was supposed to be here by now.
And she’s not.
I don’t know why I’m so upset by this.
But I’m gonna continue to sit in the corner and keep crying because I’m miserable for some unknown reason.
I’m just in a shitty mood.
And I was hoping it was going to be a good day. It hasn’t been a bad day. But I don’t know. I think too much when I’m alone and it makes me upset because shit comes up from nowhere and idk.
These feelings literally come out of nowhere and I doubt anyone even reads any of this because you know fuck how I feel.
I just burped so hard I threw up.
God I feel so sick to my stomach.
I wanna sleep.
I miss my girlfriend.
She wants to come over tonight. But I think she’s asleep now.
I don’t know what I would do without her. Honestly. I’m such a mess when she’s not around.
I’m gonna go now. Read some Stephen Chbosky.
Okay well bye.
Taking a shower, doing some homework, watching the Butterfly Effect and waiting for my girlfriend to get here.
So excited to see her, today sucked.